The time has come! Below are three "chapters" of my first novel. Volume One is the main origin story of my main character, the Goddess of Chaos and Order. I'm still editing and revising, but these are pretty solid. Enjoy!
Transmission One: Channel Two: You Can Call Me Space Girl
I Do Not Know My Name
Check one two. Check one two. Check.
Just checking my system to be sure this message is recording and it is so let
us begin.
Hello,
listeners! This is Space Cadet Captain Serendipity, an Interstellar
Communications and Relations Specialist for the Planetary and Universal
Realignment Endeavor, Galactic Oracles and Origins Division, appointed to my
position within this physical dimension of space and time by the Twelve Realms
Interstellar Freedom Organization’s Regal Council of Elders, which is an
extension of the United Universes Initiative, but you can call me Space Girl.
My home
base of operations is a space station in the middle of the known universe from
which every form of life within this physical realm of existence may come and
go as they please. Not everyone on board is a ranking officer within the Initiative,
but everyone makes a contribution in some way or another towards the Endeavor.
My job is something of an under
cover operation. I observe civilizations on other planets and interact with the
inhabitants to assess their global situations. When a planet is not in an
alignment congruent with the Initiative, which is a plan that was devised by
the Universal Creation System, we increase our numbers to help anchor that
world on a more positive timeline on the grid of physical dimensions.
Today I am sending this collection
of transmissions to anyone out and about in my universe that might be picking
up these signals, tuning into these frequencies and can hear what I am saying.
The universe in which I am
currently living is infinite; always expanding and evolving and it is full of
true love. Beings here, on my assigned planet, seem to be aware of the power of
a universe fueled by the energy of true love, but not in the same way that I am
aware of it. I seem to be the only person on this planet that is truly awake
and aware that I am actually alive. Watching everyone here is like watching
walking dead people, but they are not zombies; their minds are being
controlled. Some people have figured out a way to break free of the tangles of
the trap, but only just enough to exist peacefully as they sleep to death in
the heart of the mind control device and they live their nightmare shades of
black, white, red and gray.
For the longest time I tried to
pretend that I was one of the freaks in the freak show false reality that was
constructed by the collective minds of those being controlled by the system of
oppression. I reached my breaking point when it became apparent that the
conditioning and repressive capabilities of the device were so powerfully firm
that it had turned my own people against me. Even the people on my crew that
are working with the Initiative towards the Endeavor have lost their minds! I
have missions to complete here and it became clear to me that it was of no use
asking anyone for help. While those around me seemed to know and remember me,
it is as if they all forgot who I am, who we are, what we are meant to be doing
and the purpose of our being here. It was quite obvious to me, early on in my
life here, what I am meant to be doing.
Because I could no longer handle
the fake real world reality on my assigned planet, I boarded my remote vessel
and set it up as a temporary space station to orbit the planet to send these
transmissions to anyone that can receive them. If anyone is picking up my
signals right now, as one mind, you are reading loud and clear that I needed to
escape reality. I did. I did need to escape my world’s reality. While I had
need to escape in some way from the reality of my assigned planet for a long
time, some things happened to make me all together realize why I definitely
needed to run away from the fabricated reality show. If I didn’t disappear into
outer space to search for answers and ask for help, the real world I live in
within my true love universe would be destroyed again and again and again until
I could do something to save it.
Before I boarded my remote vessel
and launched myself into orbit, I realized things about myself that made my
world too small and myself too big in it. The very idea of my being actually
alive in a physical reality was just too incredibly unbelievable. For many
years I denied my destiny and true identity and when I finally accepted my fate
that I am an individual created to help complete missions of establishing
loving and peaceful planetary societies no one believed that I was real.
Everyone thought I was making up stories in my imagination and that I was
delusional with fantasies that life is a fairy tale and that my vision of
reality was ludicrous. Whenever I tried to communicate with those around me about
my ideas, theories and intuitions about the future and my own reality,
everything was tossed aside as ridiculous.
What I realized after reviewing my
notes was that I was actually something all together different from those
around me, but yet we are all the same here on this planet. I made discoveries
during my initial initiation process of living life on my assigned planet and I
tried to let everyone in on some big secrets about life, the universe and
everything, but no one wanted to listen. So I boarded my remote vessel and
reconnected with the space station that brought me to this place to check in
with the rest of my crew, but they are sleeping too!
No one wants to wake up and this
world I am trying to help is in danger of spinning out of control. None of my
attempts to wake up the people that can help me have worked and I don’t know
what else to do. My only option was recording these transmissions and sending
out the collection in hopes that someone, anyone, can hear me, and will
understand the dire situation that I am facing and will send help because I
cannot save this world by myself. I’ve tried. Over and over and over again I
have tried to complete my missions and every single attempt has ended with
self-destruction. I have lost count of how many times I have reset and
restarted this world to save it.
Have you ever tried to wake people
up that did not want to get out of bed even if their lives depended on it? It
is very frustrating when you’re screaming at people over the sounds of the
alarm clocks, shaking them by the shoulders and they just stare at you, yawn,
and then tell you to go away. They left me with no choice, but to leave the
planet and reconnect with my fellow crew members, but everyone on my ship has
been affected by the same mind control device so the issues I am facing with my
assignment are beyond my comprehension. My training did not prepare me for this
situation.
If anyone can hear me speaking,
please help me because I cannot save this universe by myself. I’ve been trying
to save it for a long time, but nothing has worked and I am all out of ideas
with the exception of this collection of transmissions. No one wants to wake up
and live the dream with me, but I hope that these messages will trigger a
desire in someone else that wants to wake up and save the universe from total
destruction.
I know that I am not alone out here
in outer space. I know that someone can hear me speaking. If you are reading my
signals loud and clear now, please keep on listening because I have some
stories to tell, some information to relay and some messages to send.
Transmission Two: Channel Two: You Can Call Me Space Girl
A Message to My Captain
Check one two one. Check one two.
Check! My message is recording and this time I am creating a one-two-one
connection, but the rest of you can listen too.
Hello, Captain! This is Space Girl.
You thought I was crazy, but here I am in outer space on our space station, the
one we used to get here that you completely forgot existed. As I have been
floating in space for a long time without you by my side, I thought it might
help jog your memories if I spoke to you directly, again, before I tell my
stories about our past, present and future.
What I told you about us, when I
was closer to you on our planet, is absolutely true; it is not my imagination.
While I realize how incredible it seems and completely unbelievable, it is the
truth and I thought that it would set you free. Instead of embracing me, you
escaped deeper into the matrix of the mind control and succumbed to the trappings
of the false reality of our world. You turned into someone that I didn’t
recognize anymore, just like all of the rest of the people around us, and to
you, and everyone else, I was not at all rational.
You, love, are the real reason I
had to go off world and escape reality in search of help; I couldn’t live there
anymore without you and you wanted to be nowhere near me. We have the same
missions; we thought them up for ourselves and volunteered to complete them. We
were created and brought together to be a team, a perfectly matched pair of
beings and it scared you away when you realized who I am. You fled directly
into the system’s repression core, settled into a chaotic cycle and you took me
with you because we are connected. I tore myself away from the world because I
couldn’t let you drag me into those gears and you would have done exactly that.
Our connection runs deep into our beings and it is undeniable; we have been
together since the very beginning.
Yes, others listening, this is a
somewhat sad story of true love lost, found then lost once again. I offered my
Captain a ride on my vessel to take us both to the place where we belong, but he
did not want to get on board.
I am so sorry, Captain, that I
destroyed the foundation on which we could have brought structure to our
missions. My own unstable emotional state, because of the confining conditions
in which I had been trapped for years, forced me into hysterics when you turned
to walk away from me. Because of you, I broke free of the chains that had been
holding me captive, locked away within myself and kept me out of my right mind.
Without you, I was a distorted version of myself and because of you I woke up
and tore myself out of the web of deceit that has been woven into the very
fabric of matters in our world.
I am so sorry, Captain, for all of
the things I said and did when I was not in my right mind and still confined; I
know I seemed horrible myself at one time. If I had been you and you had been
me, I would have reacted the same way. I understand how your mind works and I
know that you are not being yourself because your mind is completely out of
your control now. This is not your fault; it is the system of oppression that
is causing you to think and feel the way that you do and it is not in alignment
with your true nature. I know who you are deep down because you are the male
version of me!
*laughter*
When I finally touch down back on
the surface of our planet, I will find you first, Captain. This is a promise. I
am still very much in love with you no matter what I say or do. I know that not
all of your words were empty and full of fear. There was a time in our lives
when you meant what you said and you said what you meant and I believe that
those words came from your heart, and with true feeling, one hundred and eleven
percent. I don’t mind that I don’t matter to you now because it matters not to
me what is running through your controlled mind and your repressed heart. I
know that our connection is solid and true, but if it is your wish to be
without me, I cannot force you to embrace me.
When I return to our world, I will
find you first and foremost and if you still don’t remember me, I will turn
around and walk away. You owe me nothing, but I feel that I owe you something
and I promise to return the favor. You are free to complete your missions in
solo mode, but do not push me away because I am here to help you in any way
that I can. This is what I owe you, just one favor and display of gratitude;
that is all I want to do now.
I hope that you wake up, Captain. I
can barely fly this ship on my own. I really miss you and those blue and green
eyes in which I can see a version of my own loving reflection. I wish I had
been more stable when I met you and could have been able to more gently pull you
out of the mind control system, but I suppose you would have resisted no matter
what had happened. Even when I am in my right mind and stable, I am still quite
an unusual person.
I hope that you receive these
messages, Captain, but if not and you still do not recognize me next time you
see me, I will pretend that we do not know each other so it will not be awkward
for you. I will always love you and I will always be waiting for you to wake
up; I’ve been waiting for a really long time and I can wait longer. I’m the
type of girl from outer space that waits for the best and never settles for
less and you, Captain, made me the best I could be. Only the kiss of true love
can wake up a sleeping space beauty like me and the first time you kissed me
you didn’t kiss my face. You kissed my mind and I woke up in a whole new
reality, the real world; you woke me up to the truth of my own being and you
helped me embrace myself.
I love you, Captain. Obvious, it is
to the others listening to this message that my love runs true and deep. While
I will always be waiting for you, I will not forget to live my own life and
make my own dreams come true, but I hope that you will do the same without me.
You have to wake up if you want to live your dreams, love, and right now you are
still sleeping, just like everyone else. You are asleep and only dreaming that
your life is real. You’re lost in the system and you must wake up now and
embrace your true, loving self if you want to live in a reality when and where
all of your heart’s desires are realized and happening. You are lost within
yourself just like I was before you kissed me.
There will be more messages for you
throughout these transmissions, Captain; I cannot erase the paths in my mind
that lead to you and it is very frustrating because they are not always the
easiest to travel upon. The wound that you left on my heart is dark and deep,
but it is actually self-inflicted. The space that I created within my heart for
you to occupy is healing, but it will remain empty until you fill it because
that space is for you and no one else. You own a piece of my heart now, Captain
and you cannot give it back or give it to someone else because I am still in
control of that piece of myself. What you do with my heart is your decision,
but you should know that you have an open reservation to occupy this space and
I hope that you eventually settle into it comfortably.
I love you, Captain! This is Space
Girl, over and out of this world, but I will see you later. I will be back. You
cannot run away from me forever because I have seen the future!
*laughter*
Transmission Three: Channel Two: You Can Call Me Space Girl
I Am Who I Am
Check one two three. Check one two
one. Check one two. Check. All systems are a go and my message is recording.
Before you start thinking that I am
a sad and lonely girl from outer space, I should lighten up my tone. I’m done
being so serious with my rhythms for awhile; it’s time to make some rhymes with
my rhythms and some rhythms with my rhymes. Why be so serious all the time and
forget to be silly and have some fun? I take my missions very seriously, but
only when I need to be in reality because otherwise in reality I am the fun! Oh
yes! I am a real sweet joy in my true love universe and fun is encoded into my
DNA.
Do you want
to know who I am?
I am that one two three four five
six seven eight and on and on and on to infinity and beyond all comprehension!
That’s right! I said I am that one two three in reality, awake and alive in
this and many other galaxies within this physical realm of dimensions. I am the
one, that one two for you to see three for an open door into my space and time
wave machine. I am the one, that one two three. I am that four five six, the
seven eight nine and I even go up to twelve! I am sending these
trans-dimensional frequencies of good vibrations because I am the one two three
four five six seven eight that my universe has been waiting to see!
I call myself Serendipity because I
am the master of Synchronicity; I know all the signs, symbols and signals within
the constructions of space, matter and time. I am happy accidents that only
seem like a coincidence when they happen, but are actually planned events and
experiences put in place to trigger intuition and imagination to awaken
memories of the future, past and present to present connections that exist
between the dots of recognition!
I am utter nonsense when you meet
the real me, but sooner or later you figure out that I am more than just a
serendipitous event because I was also created with aspects of Destiny and Fate
encoded into my being. I am like a muse, and I am amusing, and my sisters and I
work together to create the perfect universe as three aspects of time merged
together into one being. I am the one Serendipitous aspect of Destiny and Fate
that had to come together to create a time and space where I could be a real
person and experience the physical universe as my true and whole self.
In my one two three core energy I
am love, true love, and my love light level is bright and shiny, shimmering,
true blue! My true blue love will always flow through me through and through
and I will radiate that brightness throughout my whole, entire universe and
into every aspect and dimension of this real world reality construction in
which I exist. I am a one who is one two three, a trinity and triple force of
power from within and my one two three sees through the four five six seven
eight and on and on and on to infinity and beyond all comprehension of
dimensions that I am conscious of in this space and at this time.
I am the one, that one, the one two
three four five six seven eight! I must communicate, though, that I am many
numbers and fractions. I am many different lines and strings all connected to
make different geometric shapes within a multidimensional matrix of matters in
many different spaces. I am one for all and all for one and everything in
between!
Let me be clear, here and now, I am
not that twisted: I am a real person and I am alive here and now as one being
in my universe. I am one first and foremost, but I am also two and one. I am
one and I am two and many other numbers, but I became aware of my self when I
became one with the universe and together we became one and two then one again.
I am one with the universe as one being observing life in my experience of it
and it is incredible. Before I was created to live in my world there was
nothing, zero, but then my soul was created and I became one amazing, bright
and shiny multidimensional being of shimmering light and unconditional love for
my universe.
When I abandoned my world of
beings, I was half dead from the effects of the mind control and confining
conditions of the reality presented to me there. I was dying of thirst for
reason, real knowledge, and I was starving for true love and attention. I
needed help and consideration, facts not fiction and truth not rumors. I just
wanted to be myself without getting hassled by the men in black robes behind
the curtains pulling the strings of the puppets. I could not handle the
pressure of being forced into a life I perceived as not worth living and I want
to live, love, laugh and be joyful!
What I discovered while hanging out
in outer space is that I am one within myself, one with every thing, one with
every one and one with the universe. I am one and yet many more than one and
more than one variation of numbers, fractions, colors, shapes, sizes and
densities within multiple dimensions of reality throughout the entire universe.
I am many strands of codes linked together by the vibrations of consciousness,
universal energies, and cosmic rays of unseen light that bring matter into
construction.
I am one mind, but connected to the
universal consciousness from which all beings were created; I am connected to
every one and every thing in all dimensions of space and time and in all
realities. I have barely even begun to learn about myself and who I am, but at
least I do know that I have hardly scratched the surface of understanding my
whole, universal self. At least I know that I am more than just one, because
like I’ve been saying:
I am that one two three four five
six seven eight and on and on and on to infinity and beyond all comprehension
as a somewhat silly girl from outer space who is quite unique and different.
Most of the words I speak are just my rambling because I am quite bored and
alone here in my spaceship, which is another reason I decided to open up these
trans-dimensional lines of communication.
If I could remember my real name, I
would tell you and you wouldn’t have to call me Space Girl, but things have
happened, most of which those listening do not want me to talk about because
they are very dark tales of terror, horror and tragedy. Those are not past life
memories I would like to revisit because what is in the past is in the past and
I am more focused on what is happening here and now that will effect the future
of my world and my universe.
We shall now, my lovely listeners,
pull things in a new direction because I seem to have changed my tone without
realizing it. This is what thinking of the past will often do, I have
discovered, which is why I just like to think of the numbers when I need to
lighten my mood. Because I am that one two three four five six seven eight and
on and on and on and because I am very aware of the synchronicity in my life, I
have realized something else about myself that is very interesting.
I am from the future!
*laughter*
I am from the future, but I am also
from the past and I have lived on many planets in many solar systems within my
true love universe. In the beginning, I was created and I have molded myself
into many physical forms since then. My signature energy vibration is
constantly shifting into a higher dimensional realm towards the future where I
used to live, breathe and be love.
I am from the future and in the
future I am asleep and dreaming that I am awake and alive here and now, but I
am real and I am alive; I am not sleeping! Reality is a dream come true when
you wake up like I have, but some people turn their dreams into waking
nightmares, which is what I am here to prevent as a Space Cadet Captain working
towards the Endeavor with the Initiative, which is the prime directive of the
Universal Creation System.
I am from the future in another
dimension of reality within the same construction of physical realities that
exist in this universe that I live in now. I am from the future of another
timeline, a timeline where all people living within one universe came together
to help each other live and survive the physical realms at peace with each
other and in harmony with their planets.
I am from a future dimension and I
traveled to the past to live lives over again so that I would see what must be
done here and now on this planet, in this universe that I live in so that I can
save my world, and all of the universes, from total destruction. I am not
alone. My crew members are many, but they are sleeping and I can’t wake them up
and everyone on my planet has lost their minds to a mind control device that
distorts reality.
What
else is a sad and lonely space girl from the future like me to do when no one
will help her complete her missions? There’s nothing left for me to do now, but
record these messages and send them in hopes that they reach the ears of
someone else like me who listens.
